I almost called you

I almost called you

I had a trapped bird and I was running out of options

I almost called you

My grandad died and left me some onions

I almost called you

I was incredibly sad and didn’t know who else to tell

I almost called you

Did our stubbornness accidentally cause this hell?

I almost called you.

My sadness almost took me again, this time I won.

I almost called you.

The radio played your name, no, the other one.

I almost called you

but I couldn’t do it at all.

There isn’t a number in my phone that I could press to call.

I don’t even have your number

The only bit I remember is 432

The same as mine made me wonder

I deleted it so I couldn’t reach you

I never really even wanted to but

I stay away from my only reflection

As a form of your protection.

I almost called you

I was having a panic attack at a train station.

Even thinking of you puts me in place and

I put the phone down and time retraced and

Remember rejection. I can’t love against your will

Distortions are smoothed by keeping still.

I almost called you,

It’s your birthday today.

I wished we made a truce.

Happy Birthday Mr B,

I almost called you Bruce.

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